I didn't want to say yo yo, because that would insinuate yo yo dieting, which I no longer do. I always want to be super and because I'm going up and down...you understand the metaphor. So, I was up 1.8 pounds this morning from yesterday. I have decided that I'm not going to stress about these four pesky pounds because TOM is still hanging around causing drama and could very well be the culprit. By Saturday or Sunday, I hope things have (dare I say it?) stabilized. I'm still drinking my 80 ounces of water and probably should be drinking more. I will try. I'm getting in not-so-many-calories, which probably isn't good either. I feel like I'm eating a ton, but I guess I'm not.

So, here it is...today's menu:

April 15th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,124; calories consumed: 761; calories burned: 0 Net calories: 761 Write in your diary: How do you feel today?

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Hillshire Farm Hillshire Farm Chicken Hardwood Smoked	2.00	180	10g	70mg	880mg	6g	2g	2g	16g
3 Egg Whites	1.00	57	0g	0mg	165mg	1g	0g	0g	12g
Market Pantry (Target Brand) Wild Flounder Fillets	1.50	150	2g	83mg	143mg	0g	0g	0g	32g
Chicken Saag	1.00	207	14g	39mg	651mg	8g	3g	2g	12g
Folgers Classic Decaf Instant Coffee 8 oz	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Good Earth Original Caffeine Free, Sweet & Spicy	1.00	3	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Tuna Salad (basic)	1.00	164	8g	184mg	304mg	8g	4g	0g	15g
Totals:		761	34g	375mg	2,142mg	24g	10g	4g	87g

I know I'm supposed to be getting in around 1500 calories and I'm no where near that today. I'll work hard to get it in tomorrow (despite the Babe's doctor's appointment). I was 161.8 pounds this morning and I did not do a steak day. I'm waiting for TOM to get the heck outta Dodge.

I weighed just slightly above the 2lb margin on my scale that reads in .5 increments. It's very possible that I was back where I needed to be, but there was no way to tell. So, I skipped breakfast (to be safe) and had a light lunch. For dinner, I indulged with Chicken Saag (I adore Indian food!) and gave my Naan and Basmati rice to my children. Of course, they didn't like them so, hopefully hubby will indulge.

After taking the eldest to dance, I went and bought the scale. Yes! I'm already feeling better (but I should probably not get too excited just yet). The scale looks like the one on the left. It's not my "Thinner", but it will do.

Here's my menu for the day:

April 14th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,109; calories consumed: 681; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 681

Mood: Okay

The steak day seemed to help, but without my scale that shows .2lb increments, I can't tell if I'm back down to within the margin or not. I will not eat breakfast, have my light lunch and a full protein dinner today. I have to buy that blasted scale! [edit this diary entry]

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Good Earth Original Caffeine Free, Sweet & Spicy	1.00	3	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Stevia Extract In The Raw	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Stevia Extract In The Raw	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Stevia Extract In The Raw	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Good Earth Original Caffeine Free, Sweet & Spicy	1.00	3	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Good Earth Original Caffeine Free, Sweet & Spicy	1.00	3	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Chicken Skewers	1.30	241	7g	86mg	108mg	8g	4g	1g	36g
Trader Joe's Instant Miso Soup	1.00	84	3g	0mg	998mg	8g	3g	2g	6g
Kroger Pepperoni	1.00	140	13g	30mg	500mg	0g	0g	0g	6g
Chicken Saag	1.00	207	14g	39mg	651mg	8g	3g	2g	12g
Folgers Classic Decaf Instant Coffee 8 oz	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Totals:		681	37g	154mg	2,257mg	24g	10g	5g	60g

I was 160 on my .5 increment scale, so I decided to eat today. I think I did okay, but definitely too much salt.

Oh, well. I drank and drank and drank till I was floating away. Then, I had a ginormous steak that I couldn't finish, along with my apple for dinner. I really hope this works because I don't want to have to do this again any time soon. Not that it was incredibly difficult, it was just sad to miss meals all day, when (if I'd planned better), I wouldn't have had too.

I didn't have time to pick up the scale like I planned and I wonder if I'll have time at all this week. Spring break spoiled me; no running kids to every place under the sun. This week, it's back to being a Mom-Taxi. Gymnastics on Tuesday, dance for one kid on Wednesday and dance for the other on Thursday. Saturday, another competition to drive too. I'll be so happy when these kids learn how to drive themselves (I think). :)

Other than I had to have a steak day, there's really nothing to tell. I'm praying hard that I dropped this blasted weight and will be able to partake in some healthy goodies tomorrow for my coworkers shower. I pre-ordered chicken skewers and Miso soup. Can't go wrong there, can I? I suppose I'll have to eat it anyway, even if I don't drop the weight (since I pre-ordered and all). I knew P3 was going to be tricky. No surprises here.

April 13th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,121; calories consumed: 400; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 400

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Celestial Seasonings Cinnamon Apple Spice Herbal Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Top Sirloin	2.00	316	11g	152mg	112mg	0g	0g	0g	52g
Pink Lady Apple	1.00	80	0g	0mg	0mg	22g	16g	5g	1g
Celestial Seasonings Black Cherry Berry Herbal Tea	1.00	4	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Totals:		400	11g	152mg	112mg	22g	16g	5g	53g

Sadly, I was 161.5 this morning. I loathe being back in the 160s, as bizarre as that sounds. I'm really being quite hard on myself. Better stop that.

Today, I woke up with a case of the stomach ickies. I knew it was coming so I only had a couple of pieces of bacon and a half a grapefruit for breakfast. For lunch, a nice healthy helping of tuna salad (complete with iceberg lettuce, a little mayo, Roma tomatoes, egg whites and bumblebee tuna). For dinner? Another salad, this one with pepperoni and mozzarella cheese and a bit of ranch. I had grilled flounder fillets for my additional protein.

For a snack, I risked and had a few almonds. Hubby swears by almonds, since they have no sugar (peanuts would have been very risky since they do have sugar). I am quite satisfied, I must say. Sweet ole TOM also showed up so, if there's an increase in my weight tomorrow, do I have a steak day? I'll have to check the boards to see what others do. Water retention during TOM will certainly dissipate over the next few days. To be safe, I went ahead an pre-grilled some sirloin.

Here's the menu in table form:

April 12th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,024; calories consumed: 1,137; calories burned: 0 Net calories: 1,137 Write in your diary: How do you feel today?

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Oscar Mayer Center Cut Bacon	1.00	50	4g	15mg	270mg	0g	0g	0g	4g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g
Member's Mark (Sam's Club) Premium Quality Whole Almonds	1.00	160	12g	0mg	0mg	6g	1g	3g	6g
Tuna Salad (basic)	2.00	328	15g	368mg	608mg	16g	9g	0g	31g
Iceburg Lettuce	2.00	20	0g	0mg	14mg	4g	2g	2g	2g
Trader Joe's Shredded Mozarella Cheese	1.00	80	6g	15mg	170mg	1g	0g	0g	8g
Kroger Pepperoni	0.25	35	3g	8mg	125mg	0g	0g	0g	2g
Wishbone Ranch Dressing	1.00	160	13g	5mg	250mg	2g	2g	0g	0g
Roma Tomato, Raw	0.50	18	0g	0mg	3mg	4g	2g	1g	1g
Market Pantry (Target Brand) Wild Flounder Fillets	2.00	200	3g	110mg	190mg	0g	0g	0g	42g
Guacamole	1.00	60	2g	0mg	130mg	6g	0g	0g	1g
Totals:		1,137	59g	521mg	1,760mg	46g	16g	6g	97g

I was 159.5 just under the gun. I really need to purchase the scale. I plan to do this tomorrow.

Yes. I had my first glass of wine in weeks and yes. I am not focusing well; however, I need to get this down before I completely forget. Weekends are rough, especially weekends when you're driving for 4.5 hours straight with two fussing kids in the back seat. Thankfully, we all arrived home safely. Oh, and my hubby placed first in his weight category at his show, this weekend (light-weight, which is still boggling to my mind) and took home overall! What a guy!

So, my first P3 day. No need to worry about dropping too much weight anymore. I can't believe how much I've eaten! I'm pretty sure it's steak day for me, tomorrow. TOM is on the way and everything salty I could eat, touched my lips. My breakfast was wonderful, my lunch was amazing and my dinner? Oh, my dinner! Yes. I probably won't get to eat a thing until tomorrow's dinner, which will be a huge steak. Oh, well. I think this was worth it.

I gotta take it easy and I know this will be easier to do on weekdays where there's more regulation and scheduling. Weekends (and impending TOM) are always a downfall for me especially when all the HCG is gone, gone, gone from my system. I'll be working on this, as I stabilize. Also, that was the last of the Lexia, so all that's left is Zinfandel. Probably better than the dessert wine. I could taste all that sugar! Not good. Here's the smorgasbord of goodies I had today (1500 calories worth. I'm still reeling!):

April 11th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,009; calories consumed: 1,531; calories burned: 0 Net calories: 1,531 Write in your diary: How do you feel today?

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Wendy's Ceasar Side Salad (w/ Ceasar Dressing)	1.00	260	19g	30mg	490mg	14g	2g	2g	8g
3 Scrambled Eggs	1.00	210	14g	0mg	0mg	2g	0g	0g	21g
Sliced Bacon	1.50	156	13g	23mg	434mg	0g	0g	0g	8g
TGI Friday's Buffalo Wings	3.00	450	30g	270mg	2,700mg	6g	0g	3g	42g
Wishbone Ranch Dressing	0.50	80	7g	3mg	125mg	1g	1g	0g	0g
Guacamole	1.00	60	2g	0mg	130mg	6g	0g	0g	1g
Dole Southwest Salad Kit	1.00	150	11g	10mg	0mg	10g	3g	2g	3g
White Dessert Wine (sweet)	1.00	165	0g	0mg	9mg	14g	8g	0g	0g
Totals:		1,531	96g	336mg	3,888mg	53g	14g	7g	84g

I was 157.5 today so, still within norms. I think it will be pretty scary tomorrow. Oh! And, I bought a scale to use for my travels. Good thing, since hubby called and said he broke the one at home, while cleaning the bathroom....glass everywhere. The bad thing is my "travel" scale weighs in with .5lb increments which is what I have not used in the past. We'll have to replace our old scale, which weighed in with .2lb increments. Want too be sure I'm not doing steak days unnecessarily. Of course, tomorrow will be totally necessary.

My condo's wireless costs an exorbitant fee, so I'm surfing at the McDonald's while my kids eat Breakfast. Yesterday was hard because I took my roast beef in the car for the long car drive and a bowl of tomatoes? Oh, nasty. I barely ate the tomatoes, which had a rancid taste and the roast beef barely did anything. Later in the day, I turned into super witch and it wasn't until dinner time that I realized I was acting out because of hunger. So, off to my favorite place: Mongolian BBQ.

Oh my gosh! I'd forgotten how good it was. My youngest loved it, but my oldest was too tired to really take in the fabulousness. I loaded up on cucumbers, cabbage, celery, tomatoes and chicken (seeing that I didn't eat much for lunch). As a sauce, I drowned it in the red cooking wine. I was in heaven! I'm thinking of going back for lunch today (a pick up just for me). The girls will want their normal "vacation" junk, so I'll oblige.

So, yesterday, I was 157 (a loss of .8lbs from my LIW) and today I was 155.5, which means I'm officially two pounds under my LIW. I gotta eat more today. Weird, right? Gotta eat more?

I will post menus again, once I'm home. I'm too distracted at the Mickey D's. This location houses a Greyhound bus stop and this place is crazy! Can't wait for my omelet tomorrow. Seems like I'm going to need it, if my weight keeps dropping. (keeps dropping...really? I'm worried about this?!).

I'm done. I had my last injection today and it's a bit surreal. By Sunday, hubby and I are talking buffet of meat and cheese. I don't think I'll make it. I had nearly the 500 calorie mark for the first time today and I feel like I'm going to blow up. Seriously!

I make my long drive tomorrow, so I'll have to have some items to take along. I'll probably do a bit of shopping, once I get there. Anyway, I am anxious to go but getting sadder about being without my hubby on our wedding anniversary.

On a happier note, I had a good loss today at 1.2lbs. This means that I can't go lower than 155.8 and no higher than 159.8 as I stabilize and then maintain (at least until Round 2). Here's what I had today, again, the closest I've been to 500 calories ever on this plan:

April 8th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,011; calories consumed: 493; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 493

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Jennie-O All Natural Turkey Burgers	1.00	160	5g	80mg	370mg	0g	0g	0g	30g
Kroger Canned Spinach	1.00	25	0g	0mg	380mg	4g	0g	2g	2g
Burger King Jr. WHOPPER - Low Carb	2.00	280	20g	80mg	280mg	2g	2g	0g	22g
Fresh Strawberries	1.00	28	0g	0mg	0mg	4g	5g	2g	2g
Folgers Classic Decaf Instant Coffee 8 oz	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Folgers Classic Decaf Instant Coffee 8 oz	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Totals:		493	25g	160mg	1,030mg	10g	7g	4g	56g

My last injection weight is 157.8 pounds for a total of 29 pounds released for round one.