It was very hard Tuesday. Eating was nearly impossible and my stomach was just out of control. My body just doesn't know what to do with that much food. Here's what I had in all it's gorging splendor:

October 26th, 2010

At the start of this day, I weighed only .2lbs more than Monday.
Calorie goal: 1,454; calories consumed: 4,232; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 4,232

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
IHOP Pancakes, Buttermilk	4.50	495	14g	135mg	2,025mg	77g	0g	0g	14g
Tropicana Orange Juice	2.00	220	0g	0mg	0mg	52g	44g	0g	4g
Del Taco Del Combo Burrito	2.00	1,060	44g	110mg	3,360mg	122g	8g	22g	56g
Del Taco Soft Taco	1.00	150	6g	20mg	330mg	15g	1g	2g	8g
Waitrose Chicken Saag	1.00	390	5g	0mg	0mg	55g	3g	0g	0g
Tandoor Chef Vegetable Samosa	3.00	570	30g	0mg	1,191mg	63g	3g	6g	12g
Cooked Basmati Rice (white)	2.00	410	1g	0mg	0mg	89g	0g	0g	8g
Storck Toffifay	2.45	515	27g	0mg	123mg	64g	44g	2g	7g
Seagram's Escapes Peach Fuzzy Navel	1.00	170	0g	0mg	40mg	4g	41g	0g	0g
Samosa	1.00	252	13g	0mg	0mg	28g	0g	3g	5g
Totals:		4,232	139g	265mg	7,069mg	569g	144g	35g	114g

I am, today, in the midst of the first VLCD and it's been a bit tricky. I am hungry and will probably eat ravenously at lunch and dinner (gotta remember to steam my cabbage). The injections have gone well, the past couple of days and I'm happy this is just a short round. I know the holidays are coming and I want to enjoy them, but at a comfortable size with my workouts again. I'm eager to be back in the "zone" where I was before the vacation. It will also feel good not to have my underwear strangling me.

So strange how this hormone works. I was making an absolute pig of myself today with all the things I love and I just didn't want them. Per protocol instructions, I pushed on and completed the day with a football stadium's fill of calories. Here's what I had:

October 25th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,452; calories consumed: 3,972; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 3,972

Mood: Full

Back on the diet. This is day one of loading and boy has it been tough (but tasty). I'm not going for 135 again (too frail). If I can be 140-145, I'll be happy to stay there.

I have a "Choux pastry" listed but what I really had was a super-sized flaky scone from one of our local eateries. The fat and calorie content is probably about the same. [ edit this diary entry]

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Choux Pastry	1.00	375	28g	145mg	280mg	24g	14g	1g	8g
Jimmy Dean Sausage Patties	1.00	170	15g	35mg	380mg	0g	0g	0g	8g
Scrambled Eggs	1.00	70	5g	240mg	70mg	1g	0g	0g	7g
Dairy Queen Cheeseburger	1.00	340	17g	65mg	850mg	29g	5g	5g	20g
Dairy Queen Crispy Chicken Wrap	1.00	850	44g	15mg	1,620mg	86g	16g	5g	32g
Dairy Queen Chocolate Covered Cherries Blizzard - Small	1.00	520	22g	40mg	210mg	69g	59g	0g	10g
Chinese Food General Tsao's Chicken	1.00	844	40g	50mg	2,157mg	61g	12g	2g	24g
Chinese Food Fried Rice	1.00	90	14g	0mg	0mg	48g	0g	0g	2g
Rum Cake	1.00	564	30g	92mg	498mg	59g	55g	1g	6g
Rose's Mojito Cocktail Mix	1.00	80	0g	0mg	0mg	20g	20g	0g	0g
Rum	1.00	69	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Totals:		3,972	214g	682mg	6,065mg	397g	181g	14g	117g

Today's starting weight was 162 (I was 163 when I started the last round). I gained around 7 pounds just from last week's binge session with the best friend. Yikes!

Round 3 begins tomorrow. Am I ready? Well, we shall see. I've purchased enough meat items and cabbage to last me a few days, once the VLCDs begin. I'll have to get used to cooking everything separately again but I've done it before, right?

The loading is fun, but difficult. The HCG makes it tough to eat and I have in mind how I'll load. After my visit with my best friend, I'm sort of sick of eating out (as is my wallet); however, I do need to say good bye to my favorites for the next month or so. Indian, Chinese and Greek are definitely on the menu (and the only items I didn't eat while the best friend was here).

I miss her already! We are still joined at the hip and never seem to run out of things to talk about. I love her dearly and despise that we are so far apart. She's an amazing support system that I need so much, but can't have on a regular basis (because there's no way I'm moving back to Nashville). So, we're resolved to alternating our visits each year. I will be there next October and when she sees my kids again, they will be 7 and 12 years old. That's crazy!

I'll weigh in the morning. I have a feeling I'll be at the weight I was when I started round 2, especially after all the crap we ate this weekend. Even though I can't work out, I have a goal to have that blasted new treadmill put together before my phase 3 begins. I gotta have my work outs ready to go, once I hit maintenance. The maintenance went very well, so long as I was working out regularly. As soon as I stopped (shortly after our return from vacation), the weight returned. I'm also resigned to a low-car lifestyle. I just don't do well with them. Even though I'm no where near the number of carbs I was ingesting before the protocol, I feel a difference mentally and physically.

Loading begins tomorrow. I'm thinking a scone with loads of honey butter and bacon for breakfast. I've been enjoying cappuccinos since the cold has come in and the new pumpkin spice flavor is lovely. I may have one of those, at some point. Chinese and Greek will round out the day and I know I'll probably be so full and uncomfortable. I don't look forward to that at all, but it is so necessary for the process.

So, the short round may not get me back into the 130's and I'm really not upset about it. Crazy, right? I was so all about being 135 but I felt good at 140-145. My hubby was also happy with that weight and I didn't look frail. So, if 145 is to be my ideal weight for me, then so be it. Here we go!

My best friend is coming soon for a visit. It's her year and I'm incredibly excited. I've been eating mostly protein (very few carbs) to eliminate the "cruise weight" I put on. I got most of it off and then. Bam! TOM! Nice. The water weight left; however, hubby returned with goodies from Vegas that we can't get here in Utah. We had a splurge day and bam! The pounds came back.

The good news is that I'm doing the protein-style diet again and the weight is steadily creeping off. I know more would leave if I could just increase my water (and finish putting together the treadmill that we bought --hopefully, hubby and I can finish it up this weekend).

I didn't start round three after the cruise, as I had planned, because my girlfriend's flight was made for only one month after our return. It would have been such a drag to be in the midst of a round with a friend here from out-of-town (way out of town). No lunches or late night snacks. So, I will start it up the Monday after her departure. I'll do a short round to try and get into the low 130s this time, which should have me stabilize, eventually, into the high 130s. The round should end just before Thanksgiving, putting me in P3 two days before. No cornbread dressing this year, but plenty of turkey and veggies. I'll be able to eat the "happy" goodies at Christmas (in moderation, of course).

Well, at least for now. I put on ten pounds (of mostly water) during our vacation. Thankfully, four pounds disappeared two days after we got home. We went to Vegas the first day and played around that evening. The next day, we drove to Orange, California and stayed two nights. The second day we were in California (Sunday) we spent time at one of my favorite childhood parks, Knotts Berry Farm. The girls loved it. Dad was less than thrilled about the lines, but he admitted to having a good time, too.

Monday, we drove to Long Beach port and hopped onto our Carnival Cruise ocean liner to Mexico. Sweet! Our first cruise! Lordy, Lordy did we have fun! We did really well with our eating the first two days, but things began to go downhill once they had their cheesecake buffet (seriously! I had to have some!). I figure that I was contributing to the consumption of American dairy, which is always good. The other items were tantalizing as well and I think I could have done far worse, if I'd let my curiosity of every dish get the best of me. More than anything, the salt was the biggest culprit.

In Mexico, I came to a churro stand where (I kid you not) I had the best churros of my life, and I'm really not that big of a fan. We also had the most amazing fish tacos, asada and tostadas ever. Hubby went back for round two, they were so good. My kingdom for another fish taco.

We went to shows, participated in karaoke and family karaoke, we ate, we swam, we debarked and visited Santa Catalina and Ensanada. What a wonderful vacation. When can we do it again?!

Once the cruise ended, we hoped in the car and drove back to Vegas for one night. We stayed at Tahiti Village (very nice and hubby and I have agreed to stay there again without the children). We would have stayed there a lot sooner, but my mother canceled out on us for babysitting so, hubby had to cancel the reservation.

So, round 3 will not begin until the end of October, most likely. I'm doing a lot of protein and a cleanse to rid my system of all the yuck. I told hubby of my plans and he's still touting the, "You better not get too small," speech. I promised him I would not venture into the crack-look. It's not attractive, no matter what the media tells you.

I'm still here and P4 is going well. I've put on about five pounds (I fluctuate between 144 and 146 most days). When things start to get scary, I'm around148 pounds. Then, I resort to a P3 diet for a day or so and everything calms down. All is well and I'm feeling great.

I think my hubby is very happy with my current size. He keeps telling me how well I'm maintaining and how others who have done this have sky-rocketed by 20lbs in just a month or so. I remind him that I may still do one more round after the vacation but, I have a feeling he would make me crazy the entire time. He already calls me frail. Frail? Me? Really?!

We went to the Earth, Wind and Fire concert this past weekend and, although we were nearly at the top of the mountain and could barely see, we had a great time. They've been together nearly forty years, according to Mr. Phil Bailey. Talk about longevity! Hubby and I had a ball dancing together and laughing at all the drunk people. Seriously! Do you need a 64 ounce bottle of tequila for a concert?

I bought the most amazing floor-length evening gown from JC Penney, of all places. It's for the vacation and I honestly can't believe how beautiful it looks on me. I didn't think it would but when I tried it on, weeks of searching came to an end. It was on super sale as well. I really wanted something with a lot of color but truly this was a case where less was more.

Work is kicking my butt and the primary reason why I'm not posting as often as I'd like. Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays are often 12-hour days. By the time work is over, the last thing I want to do is mess around with another computer (even if it is my personal computer). I'm still trying to get used to the schedule and I'm beginning to wonder if I ever will. The transition has been much harder than I thought.

Finally, our vacation is coming up quickly and I can't wait! Mainly because I'll get to play and sleep in till 7 or maybe 8 in the morning. Yep! That's sleeping in for me. October will bring to town my very best friend. I'm looking forward to that as well. Then, Thanksgiving in November and Christmas in December. You really have to have things to look forward to in life or, what's the point?

I won't even utter what my weight was, yesterday. Scary! I did document it on thedailyplate and have been keeping that pretty consistent. The nice things is that I did show a two pound loss this morning. The water weight is still there, but I don't feel as bloated. I always forget; is it two or three days after TOM that the water goes away completely? I'm hoping it's two, because today is my last day and I'd like to enjoy a piece of Julian bread again before the week ends (if possible).

Yes. I've been revisiting P3 food options to try and correct the damage from the weekend. It seems to be working. I haven't worked out again this week, but plan to tomorrow (I don't have calls that start at 6:00am, thankfully so I'll actually be able to get in my 30 minutes - -I'm a morning workout, girl).

The salt is way too high and I'm steadily sipping on my water and chastising myself for going salt overboard. I plan to do much better tomorrow. Here are my totals for the past couple of days:

August 4th, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,331; calories consumed: 1,379; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 1,379

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Enchantress's Bacon and Cheddar Quiche	1.00	265	23g	90mg	488mg	3g	0g	0g	9g
Bar-S Foods Bacon	0.50	40	4g	8mg	140mg	0g	0g	0g	2g
Folgers Classic Decaf Instant Coffee 8 oz	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Archer Farms Hazelnut Coffee Syrup Sugar Free	0.50	0	0g	0mg	5mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Enchantress's Loaded Baked Potatoes (It's Cauliflower!)	1.00	289	25g	28mg	600mg	9g	6g	1g	9g
Guacamole	1.00	60	2g	0mg	130mg	6g	0g	0g	1g
Bar-S Foods Bacon	0.50	40	4g	8mg	140mg	0g	0g	0g	2g
Enchantress's Loaded Baked Potatoes (It's Cauliflower!)	0.50	145	12g	14mg	300mg	5g	3g	1g	4g
KFC Double Down Original	1.00	540	32g	145mg	1,380mg	11g	1g	1g	53g
Totals:		1,379	101g	291mg	3,182mg	34g	10g	3g	81g

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August 3rd, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,331; calories consumed: 943; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 943

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Enchantress's Bacon and Cheddar Quiche	1.00	265	23g	90mg	488mg	3g	0g	0g	9g
Enchantress's Taco Bake (low in carbs)	1.00	282	18g	172mg	450mg	4g	1g	0g	25g
Celestial Seasonings True Blueberry	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Good Earth Original Caffeine Free, Sweet & Spicy	1.00	3	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Good Earth Original Caffeine Free, Sweet & Spicy	1.00	3	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Marketside Southwest Salad	1.00	160	13g	10mg	210mg	8g	2g	2g	3g
Walmart Rotisserie Chicken	1.00	170	10g	60mg	650mg	0g	0g	0g	20g
Guacamole	1.00	60	2g	0mg	130mg	6g	0g	0g	1g
Totals:		943	67g	332mg	1,927mg	22g	3g	2g	59g

Well, hubby and I had our weekend away. It started off nice enough, but things quickly turned down hill. It's the usual story; hubby and wife get away from the children and then find that there are irritations that go beyond the children and home life. The good news is that we made up, once we got home. We try to work things out whenever we argue it's just some things are harder to get over than others.

Hubby was there to support a friend in a body building show. I was invited to spend the free time with him. Having been to Vegas lots of times, we steered clear of the strip and visited the malls and outlet stores. We also went to our favorite places to eat. Unfortunately, the economy has had it's effect on those, too. Dang it!

The French Market Buffet is rated on of the best in town. We've been several times and have never been disappointed...until Saturday. Ugh! What the heck?! Low quality, tasteless, hard. You name it, we found it. The best thing was the strawberry shortcake and it wasn't even that great. Even the crab legs were ice cold. Bleck! We went to a chicken strip joint Friday night that was oh, so mediocre. (I saved up my carb gram allotment for this?!) We went to In and Out. It was the only thing good that we had, and they're building one right around the corner from my mother's house. Doggone it! We could have waited and ate that here!

I worked out with hubby on Friday afternoon for about 45 minutes and we swam on Saturday (I'm still sore from the swimming) TOM decided to show up Saturday morning, which was three days early after the change in elevation. We went from 4300 feet above sea level to 2000. I've had this happen before...like, getting on a plane to go somewhere and viola! Hello, TOM. So, I didn't weigh the entire time I was gone and I didn't weigh this morning. I had a protein day to sort of counter-act all the drama over the weekend (so not worth it and it's such a shame). I will allow myself more carbs later in the week and, hopefully, they'll be better than what we had this weekend. Here's what I had today:

August 2nd, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,277; calories consumed: 642; calories burned: 0 Net calories: 642 Write in your diary: How do you feel today?

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Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Bumble Bee Chunk Light Tuna	2.00	100	0g	60mg	360mg	0g	0g	0g	26g
Western Family Real Mayonnaise	1.00	100	11g	5mg	85mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Heinz Dill Relish	1.00	0	0g	0mg	230mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Myown Hard Boiled Egg Whites	2.00	36	0g	0mg	0mg	1g	0g	0g	8g
Enchantress's Taco Bake (low in carbs)	1.00	282	18g	172mg	450mg	4g	1g	0g	25g
Guacamole	1.00	60	2g	0mg	130mg	6g	0g	0g	1g
Ezra Brooks Bourbon	1.00	64	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Coke Zero Cherry Coke Zero	0.75	0	0g	0mg	30mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Totals:		642	32g	237mg	1,285mg	11g	1g	0g	60g

Oh! I forgot to add my slice of Julian bread with dinner. I thought the fiber would be good to get things "moving", if you know what I mean. The count is so high that the carbs or unsubstantial but I thought I'd at least mention that I had it. Happy Monday!