Day 5 VLCD - First Skipped Injection

Boy oh boy, did that missed injection make a difference! This morning, I drank and drank to try and hold off the cravings. By this evening, I was hungrier than I've been in the past few days. I guess it really is making a difference. I got in my 80 ounces of water and plan to have a nice, hot cup of decaf tonight to try and relax a bit.

Discoveries - Food really rules so many aspects of my life. I noticed during the first two days how much I think about food. Food effects my day-to-day decisions. How I may view something or read something may trigger me to look for food. Intense feelings (good, bad, stressful) may have me searching for specific foods. I'm actually looking forward to when those feelings leave me completely. I will be happy to leave behind my addictions as well as all my weird emotional ties to food. Today, I've felt more in control of things (despite the cravings) and I wasn't focusing on food as much. I am looking forward to a future where I eat to live rather than live to eat. I don't doubt that I'll always enjoy food and some of it's comforts, but I'll certainly have a better relationship. Food will not be my enemy, just a friend with boundaries.

Here's what I've done for the day:

March 2nd, 2010

Calorie goal: 1,183; calories consumed: 403; calories burned: 0 Net calories: 403

Mood: Hungry

That missed injection certainly makes a difference. (I cringe to think of no injections during TOM). Perhaps, when there is more HCG in my system, I won't struggle so much. [edit this diary entry]

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Popeye Fresh Tender Spinach	1.00	25	0g	0mg	80mg	4g	0g	2g	3g
Napoleon Balsamic Vinegar	1.00	10	0g	0mg	5mg	2g	2g	0g	0g
Cube Steak	1.00	169	4g	77mg	38mg	0g	0g	0g	31g
Grape Tomatoes	1.00	25	0g	0mg	0mg	6g	3g	1g	1g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g
Tyson Chicken Breast	1.00	110	3g	55mg	180mg	0g	0g	0g	23g
Wasa Crackers	1.00	35	0g	0mg	60mg	7g	0g	2g	1g
Frank's Red Hot Buffalo Wing Sauce	0.50	3	0g	0mg	230mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Totals:		403	7g	132mg	593mg	26g	5g	5g	60g

Today's weight was 180 on the nose this morning. I hate to be a cynic and a skeptic, but I don't know that I'll feel this is really happening for me for a few days. Is it awful to be thinking that this could just be water loss? I'm praying it's fat loss. Really praying. I think I'll just keep on praying. :)