No More Making Mrs. Claus My Role Model

Christmas is over and the new year approacheth. Of course, I made myself far too merry and indulged myself with lots of happiness and too much food. The happiness is always good, but the food always seems to go with it. Interestingly, 2011 wasn't the greatest year and I should be super lean because of it (I trend towards eating less when I'm depressed). The end of the year has brought big changes and the result? My expanded (expanding) waistline.

I haven't stepped on the scale in a couple of weeks, but I know things are not good. I knew I would be back on the wagon after the holidays and my goal is, as always, to try and make permanent changes that result in good maintenance. I will be on that road soon.

Interestingly, hubby asked, "Are you going to do another round?" I thought this interesting, since he gets very frustrated when I am on the protocol. He's very supportive, but always feels I eat so little. I have to remind him, "That it's part of the initial process and you know it doesn't last forever." I do well with the first two phases and even begin maintaining well (initially), but something seems to creep in and set me back. It's time to do a little "me" investigating again and hopefully squash whatever it is that creeps in. It's detrimental to all my progress.

I've been reading around again to all my saved blogs, vlogs and motivational sites. I also plan to re-read Pounds and Inches very soon (always do so before a round). I've still a few things to research since I've decided to try sub-lingual this time over injections. Although I have no problem with injections and have been successful with that route, I would rather keep going and not worry about skip days and immunity. The skip days always throw a wrench in planning. Let's just do it and get it over with, right?

Once my product arrives and the timing is in place (TOM is here right now so, I'm guessing shortly after my daughter's birthday and right before mine), I will begin Round Five. Two and Five are my lucky numbers. Gosh, I hope that proves true with my weight reduction. (Incidentally, I was in the 140s at the end of round two so, as always, I remain hopeful).

Goals are important and there's no time like the present to set up some wish list items (and as far as time, it happens to be about 6-ish in the morning on an off day...why am I up?):

-15lbs = a new game (time management games are my favorite and keep me from nibbling)


-25lbs = mani/pedi combo (a true treat! I get pedis regularly but full beauty would be nice)

-35lbs = new hair (I'm eying a really lovely unit that's pretty pricey)

-40lbs or more = a new designer cocktail dress for my work mixer this summer (perhaps not this one, but something just as sassy)


I'm gearing up and feeling pretty good about things to come.

What will be difficult is buying a pair of big girl jeans today. Hubby and I are going on our couples excursion and sweats are not an option. I've got a dress or two, but that's not practical in 20 degree weather. So, I'll breakdown and buy an inexpensive pair of size (heaven help me!) fourteen jeans today. What's really frightening is that I'm not sure those will be big enough. Ugh! If that's true, this will be the largest I've ever been while not pregnant.

It's not an easy process (it never is), but I'm up to the challenge and ready to dedicate myself full force. I know I will feel better, live better and look better with less weight. I will be more inclined to activity (right now, it's just very difficult). I'm also anxious to get back into my cute, little clothes from last year. I've held off from buying too many "big girl" clothes (aside from sweats) because I know I'll get back down. I am determined to be healthy again. So shall it be. Amen!