Ebony Echantress's Road To Fabulous

R5, P2, VLCD 25- Finding Time (182.8) =.2lb

2012-02-09T21:35:00.002-07:00

I am just about out of my HCG. I think I may have one or two more doses left. Goodness! Thank heaven's for the planned interruption or I would have had to make-up more and just going. Hubby has decided that he does want to have dinner with me next Friday, sans kids. I'm really looking forward to that. I'm ready for my Pra Ram (Thai) or Eggplant (Italian). We'll see what we decide. Perhaps we'll go to the Brazilian restaurant. That way, we can both have a good time with plenty of protein. I'm like that idea a lot.

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Top Sirloin	1.00	158	5g	76mg	56mg	0g	0g	0g	26g
Cabbage, Steamed	1.00	22	0g	0mg	16mg	5g	0g	0g	1g
Tyson Fully Cooked Grilled Chicken Breast Strips	1.00	120	4g	55mg	500mg	1g	1g	0g	21g
Asparagus, Steamed	1.00	26	0g	0mg	2mg	5g	0g	2g	0g
Ezra Brooks Bourbon	2.00	128	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		454	9g	131mg	574mg	11g	1g	2g	48g

R5, P2, VLCD 24- Finding Time (183) =.8lb

2012-02-08T20:23:00.003-07:00

I've been so busy and tired that I haven't spent the time blogging like I should. Things are going well (steady loses over the last few days). I actually forgot about my dose, last night. I kind of figured it would happen. It's so much easier to inject in the morning and not have to worry about doing anything else until the next morning. You take the bitters with the sweet, I guess. After my interruption, I'll be able to get back to it for another 30 days with sublingual. I could not do the same with injecting.

I gotta say, I'm really looking forward to the break and all the lovely protein choices next week. My girls have been invited to a church pizza party so, instead of the three days, I may make it four. I'm trying to convince hubby that an evening out for dinner and couple time would be a good thing. If he can't participate (training clients or whatever), I'll just pick it up and enjoy it by myself.

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Top Sirloin	1.00	158	5g	76mg	56mg	0g	0g	0g	26g
Cabbage, Steamed	1.00	22	0g	0mg	16mg	5g	0g	0g	1g
Tyson Fully Cooked Grilled Chicken Breast Strips	1.00	120	4g	55mg	500mg	1g	1g	0g	21g
Trader Joe's Kosher Dill Pickles	1.00	0	0g	0mg	280mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Ezra Brooks Bourbon	1.00	64	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		364	9g	131mg	852mg	6g	1g	0g	48g

R5, P2, VLCD 21- A Full Weekend (185)

2012-02-05T20:58:00.003-07:00

My weekend was pretty full, which is why I had a bit of trouble keeping up with my blogging. I had crab legs last night, which resulted in a gain (184.6 to 185 today). Not huge, but when you expect a loss everyday, it can be a bit of a bummer. Today, I watched the salt and stayed on protocol.

We took the girls to see Puss in Boots at the discount theater, yesterday. It was cute but I totally understand why it received the reviews it's gotten. It was all over the place and when you work to develop a side-kick, he better have an interesting story. Yeah, it really wasn't that interesting. Lots of cute jokes and one-liners, though. The girls enjoyed it and that's what really matters.

I just finished taking my second shower of the day. We played the Wii (Just Dance 3 and the Michael Jackson Experience). Normally, it's just me and the girls but lo and behold...hubby joined in tonight! It was fabulous! I hope he enjoyed himself as much as I enjoyed watching him.

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Top Sirloin	1.00	158	5g	76mg	56mg	0g	0g	0g	26g
Canned Spinach	1.00	30	0g	0mg	190mg	4g	1g	2g	3g
Chicken Breast	1.00	130	1g	68mg	77mg	0g	0g	0g	27g
Green Giant Asparagus Spears, Canned	1.00	20	0g	0mg	430mg	3g	1g	1g	2g
Ezra Brooks Bourbon	1.00	64	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		415	6g	145mg	774mg	9g	4g	3g	59g

Wonder if I'll have a bigger loss because of the activity? I really hope so. I worry about water retention (I seem to be best friends, whether it's from eating too much salt or working out too hard).

R5, P2, VLCD 19- Gymnasts are Amazing! (185.8)

2012-02-03T22:47:00.003-07:00

Yesterday was long and hard, so I didn't post. It bears stating that I had Miso and sodium content was through the roof, so I had a slight gain. I'm hopeful that I have pushed past the salt and see a nice loss tomorrow. Only time will tell.

We went to the gymnastic meet tonight between the Utah and Georgia. It was a great match and my daughters had a blast. My mother and sister joined us and seemed to have just as much fun. Wow! The things these young ladies can do is nothing short of amazing! When my eldest used to take gymnastics, she aspired to be at this level. Unfortunately, the boobs came in. When that happens, it's sort of the end of anything uneven or vault. Oh, well. She's still got her dancing.

Here's what I had today (a little treat, you'll note, to take to the meet). Goodness! I could smell the cinnamon pretzels. I love those things. It was killing me!

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g
Celestial Seasonings Zingers To Go - Peach Delight Green Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
McDonald's Grilled Chicken Breast	1.00	120	2g	0mg	0mg	3g	0g	0g	22g
Top Sirloin	1.00	158	5g	76mg	56mg	0g	0g	0g	26g
Canned Spinach	1.00	30	0g	0mg	190mg	4g	1g	2g	3g
Sugar Free Ring Pop	1.00	30	0g	0mg	35mg	13g	13g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		351	7g	77mg	302mg	22g	16g	2g	52g

R5, P2, VLCD 17- Making Dinner on a Dime (185.4) = -.6lb

2012-02-01T21:38:00.002-07:00

Okay so, not really. I made dinner with stuff around the house, which I haven't done in a very long time. There were frozen chicken tenders in the freezer. I took out several of them and put them in a marinade at around 4:00 this afternoon. I left them to soak up the Mesquite flavoring on top of the stove (they were frozen, after all).

Once work was done, I went to find a side item. Spanish Rice-a-Roni! My kids are not usually rice fans, but I figured they'd eat whatever I made. I also found some cornbread fixings. Hubby called in the midst of the dinner making and asked me to bake his Swai for him. Sorry to say I left it to bake far longer than I planned, but it didn't burn (thankfully!).

The veggies consisted of raw, radishes that they dipped in ranch dressing. A strange combo, but they loved it. Both girls asked for seconds and both wanted more rice. Amazing! So, what did mom have? Here you go:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Leslie's Pan-grilled Flank Steak W/ Chermoula	1.00	195	9g	37mg	284mg	3g	0g	1g	25g
Canned Spinach	1.00	30	0g	0mg	190mg	4g	1g	2g	3g
Pickwick English Breakfast Black Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Coffee	1.00	2	0g	0mg	5mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Kroger Lactose Free, Fat Free Milk	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g
Tetley Orange Pekoe Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	5mg	1g	0g	0g	0g
Publix Orange Roughy	1.00	80	1g	20mg	70mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Dole Shredded Lettuce	1.00	15	0g	0mg	10mg	3g	2g	1g	1g
Maple Grove Farms Fat Free Balsamic Vinaigrette	1.00	15	0g	0mg	95mg	3g	2g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		350	10g	58mg	680mg	16g	7g	4g	47g

R5, P2, VLCD 16- I Need A Break, Please! (186) = -.4lb

2012-01-31T20:45:00.006-07:00

My day was absolutely insane! Because of the craziness, I had to eat on the go. The only restaurant fast and close by was Carl's. The meat is pretty hefty in weight on their low-carb burger, but I ordered without cheese can ketchup (couldn't find a listing that reflected both changes). I only had a bit of chicken. It was mixed with a fajita spice, but no bread. I'm really guesstimating here and being totally off protocol for lunch, I'll be praying there isn't too much damage.

This is supposed to be my light week with calls but I fell behind and that just spiraled onward from there. I'm really frustrated and, although my students seem to like and appreciate me, it's hard trying to take care of so many. I feel like the older sister to 90 siblings and the parents keep going out, leaving me to take care of everybody. I hate to say it but the summer can't get here fast enough.

So, here's what the damage was today. Praying, praying, praying...

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Carl's Jr. Low Carb Six Dollar Burger - No Cheese	1.00	390	29g	110mg	890mg	4g	2g	2g	27g
Jack in the Box Chicken Fajita Pita (no Pita Bread, Cheese Or Salsa)	1.00	90	3g	40mg	745mg	4g	3g	2g	13g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		519	32g	151mg	1,656mg	17g	7g	4g	41g

R5, P2, VLCD 15- Monday, Monday (186.4)

2012-01-30T21:39:00.002-07:00

I didn't document, yesterday. Oh, well. I had a slight gain on Sunday morning. I only slept three hours, so no surprise here. Today, I had a nice loss. I hope the trend continues despite all the stress I'm enduring. My stress comes from my crazy job and wondering how long I'll deal with the drama. I've somewhat decided that I'll job hunt this summer. It's just not worth it to me to lose my ever loving mind, bringing heartache to my family. It's really too bad, since my job would be perfect if I only had 50 students less (I'd really settle for 20 students less).

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Leslie's Pan-grilled Flank Steak W/ Chermoula	1.00	195	9g	37mg	284mg	3g	0g	1g	25g
Canned Spinach	1.00	30	0g	0mg	190mg	4g	1g	2g	3g
King Crab Legs	1.00	82	1g	45mg	911mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Dole Shredded Lettuce	1.00	15	0g	0mg	10mg	3g	2g	1g	1g
Maple Grove Farms Fat Free Balsamic Vinaigrette	1.00	15	0g	0mg	95mg	3g	2g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		337	10g	82mg	1,490mg	13g	5g	4g	46g

R5, P2, VLCD 13 - MMA Fight Night! (187.0) = -2 lbs

2012-01-28T23:17:00.003-07:00

We had an interesting day today. It started off well enough, then hubby got irritated with me fast and in a hurry. On the good side, I got Mongolian BBQ for lunch. On the bad side, he didn't say very much. When we argue, it always zaps my appetite. Consequently, I did not have dinner (but my lunch was so high in salt, it's probably better that I didn't).

The evening was great! Hubby was still out of sorts, but we went to a friend's house (Rotel dip and On the Border chips in tow) to watch an MMA fight. The rotel was my mother's recipe and it was a huge hit. I think I could low carb it enough to make it a staple for P3, when the time comes. It smelled wonderful, but I didn't even get a taste. Bummer!

My friend was burning a candle which sent my eldest into an asthma fit. She just finished an Albuterol treatment, poor thing. Now, it's off to bed. For what it's worth, I was glad to see the two pound loss (no more nibbling on chocolate and TOM being over probably helped). Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Ajinomoto Mongolian Style Beef	1.00	280	7g	75mg	1,290mg	27g	19g	2g	26g
Hot And Sour Soup	1.00	228	9g	112mg	0mg	10g	0g	1g	27g
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Twinings English Breakfast Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		508	16g	187mg	1,290mg	37g	19g	3g	53g

R5, P2, VLCD 12 - Naughty, Naughty! (189.0) = +1.2lb

2012-01-27T21:52:00.004-07:00

It's true confessions, time. I had several more pieces of sugar-free chocolate, yesterday. I honestly thought they wouldn't effect me. Now, why on earth did I think that?! Of course they did! A whole one pound gain of effect all over the place. Yikes! So, I was better today (even though I did eat out). I've also got a whole crop of canker going on and I have to wonder if my acid level from the chocolate is doing me in. Not good...not good at all!

I had none of that today and tried to drink water like a good girl. Biding my time through these awful sores is going to be tough, but I've done it before. I just want the scale to start heading in the other direction again. It may be foolish to think that some of this is salt and TOM playing games, but it would be nice to have that as a partial truth. At least then I wouldn't feel so bad. Feeling bad is probably just what I need to get it together. So, Enchantress? Get it together!

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Burger King WHOPPER - Low Carb	1.00	280	20g	75mg	290mg	3g	2g	2g	22g
Burger King Side Salad	2.00	40	0g	10mg	0mg	8g	1g	3g	1g
Chicken Breast	1.00	130	1g	68mg	77mg	0g	0g	0g	27g
Canned Tomatoes, Diced	1.00	25	0g	0mg	350mg	4g	3g	1g	2g
Coffee	1.00	2	0g	0mg	5mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.25	20	0g	1mg	33mg	3g	3g	0g	2g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		497	21g	154mg	755mg	18g	9g	6g	55g

Oh, and I opted not to do the "spoil myself" thing today. I went with hubby and the kids into town instead. Since I can't do my pedicure, he's offered to take them off my hands later when I can do the treatment with the lotion and be okay. Hopefully, by then, I will have made the goal to do both the pedi and mani.

R5, P2, VLCD 11 - How to Spoil Myself (187.8) = +.2lb

2012-01-26T20:55:00.002-07:00

How do I do that? My hubby is giving me Saturday afternoon to just spoil myself for my birthday. He did that once before (when I turned 28). Back then, only had one child and I wasn't eating 500 calories a day, avoiding oils of all kind like the plague. That day, I bought myself a new outfit, including accessories, went to the bookstore to browse in peace, treated myself to my favorite lunch and ended with a pedicure.

I could do the lunch at the Mongolian place, but if I eat there, I'll be tempted to keep getting up for more food (even if it is just bowl after bowl of veggies). The pedicure would be wonderful, but they slather my legs down in lotion. I can't have the outside oil and I don't want to insult my regular pedicurist by bringing my personal mineral oil to her shop. I could certainly browse the bookstore which would be nice. I'm still trying to figure it all out. Maybe hubby will help me come up with something good.

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Burger King Whopper Jr. (no Bun, Ketchup Or Mayo)	1.00	130	9g	35mg	140mg	1g	0g	0g	11g
Burger King Side Salad	2.00	40	0g	10mg	0mg	8g	1g	3g	1g
Chicken Breast	1.00	130	1g	68mg	77mg	0g	0g	0g	27g
miso soup	1.00	70	2g	0mg	721mg	9g	0g	3g	5g
Ezra Brooks Bourbon	1.00	64	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		434	12g	113mg	938mg	18g	2g	6g	44g

R5, P2, VLCD 10 - Happy Happy Birthday, Baby (187.6) = -.4lb

2012-01-26T13:52:00.004-07:00

(Late posting for January 25th - my birthday) My birthday was good, although a bit crazy. I had to work and it was a long day. Facebook is great in that you get all the well wishing. That was a nice touch to the day. For dinner, I boiled my crabs. They were good, but not great. I got the impression they'd been in deep freeze for too long. Oh, well. I'll make sure to get fresh next time.

I bought my girls pizza to eat to celebrate my birthday. They were quite pleased and didn't seem to mind that there wasn't a cake. I didn't get to go and enjoy my amusement park freebie. It's too blasted cold, anyway. I had several sugar-free pieces of chocolate as a treat and am pretty sure it will have an effect on my weight (along with the salty crabs). They're made by a mom/pop company here and there are no nutritional facts for the chocolates. I'd say I had enough to take my calories over a bit.

Not sure I mentioned it but, TOM arrived right on schedule Tuesday. I haven't noticed a difference in my menses but will keep an eye on things throughout the rest of the time. Here's what I had:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Ajinomoto Mongolian Style Beef	1.00	280	7g	75mg	1,290mg	27g	19g	2g	26g
miso soup	1.00	70	2g	0mg	721mg	9g	0g	3g	5g
Snow Crab Legs	1.00	95	1g	59mg	572mg	0g	0g	0g	20g
Dole Shredded Lettuce	1.00	15	0g	0mg	10mg	3g	2g	1g	1g
Maple Grove Farms Fat Free Balsamic Vinaigrette	1.00	15	0g	0mg	95mg	3g	2g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		475	10g	134mg	2,688mg	42g	23g	6g	52g

R5, P2, VLCD 9 - Cod is Bland (188) = -1lb

2012-01-24T20:50:00.003-07:00

I gotta find new ways to prepare cod because it is so boring and bland. Even with my seasonings and such, it just doesn't hold any flavor. Of course, batter fried it would be phenomenal. It's as if it were made for grease and beer.

Tomorrow is crab day. I am so thrilled! They're my favorite and knowing that their protocol safe just makes me that much happier. I'll have a grilled chicken breast for lunch. It's my day and I'm having it (I'm not really asserting myself...the chicken is part of the diet, too).

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Top Sirloin	0.50	79	3g	38mg	28mg	0g	0g	0g	13g
Canned Spinach	1.00	30	0g	0mg	190mg	4g	1g	2g	3g
Wegmans Cod	1.00	90	1g	45mg	65mg	0g	0g	0g	20g
Canned Tomatoes, Diced	1.00	25	0g	0mg	350mg	4g	3g	1g	2g
Svedka Vodka	1.00	69	0g	0mg	0mg	11g	0g	0g	0g
Russell Stover Sugar Free Peanut Butter Cups	0.50	80	6g	3mg	53mg	9g	0g	1g	2g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		373	10g	86mg	686mg	28g	4g	4g	39g

R5, P2, VLCD 8 - Shiver Me Timbers! (189) = -1lb

2012-01-24T09:14:00.002-07:00

(Late post for January 23rd) It is cold around these parts...I mean downright frigid! Winter finally appeared and brought loads of snow. The snow made for slippery, wet conditions as I took my youngest to dance class. I really would have opted to stay home and have her miss but, it's one of the few preplanned girl times that I have.

I've built a nice relationship with some of the dance mommies. We've had lunch together, entertainment nights and we go participate in the girls' birthday parties. Working from home resulted in a loss of socialization and that was so hard for me. Having these ladies to talk to, even if just for an hour on Mondays has been a godsend. It's also given me a reason to go out more.

With all the weight I put on during the holidays, I don't want to buy big-girl clothes. I've got tons of cute, little clothes (some I've never even worn) to wear out with the girls. I'm really staying focused on things like this to keep me going with the protocol. Here's what I had on Monday:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Target Beef Stew Meat	0.75	150	9g	45mg	248mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Cabbage, Steamed	1.00	22	0g	0mg	16mg	5g	0g	0g	1g
Publix Orange Roughy	1.00	80	1g	20mg	70mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Green Giant Asparagus Spears, Canned	1.00	20	0g	0mg	430mg	3g	1g	1g	2g
Svedka Vodka	2.00	138	0g	0mg	0mg	23g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		410	10g	65mg	763mg	30g	1g	1g	35g

R5, P2, VLCD 7 - Paying for the Salt (190) = +1.2lbs

2012-01-22T20:16:00.004-07:00

I woke up feeling the bloat and knew things wouldn't be good. No downward trend today (but thankfully, I wasn't up a whole lot either). I was very good about my eating and drinking today, in order to compensate. The crabbiness is here and I'm thinking I should invest in a B12 supplement to help with those times. I would do so, not just during a diet, but all the time. Who doesn't want to feel balanced?

Church was a no go today. I walked the dogs and nearly slid across the parking lot. I decided to be safe rather than sorry. Thankfully, the sun appeared later and melted a lot of the ice. I'm hopeful that the snow and rain hold off for a bit for a while. I'd like a warming trend.

Here's what I had:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g
Stevia Powder	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	3g	0g	0g	0g
Top Sirloin	1.00	158	5g	76mg	56mg	0g	0g	0g	26g
Canned Tomatoes, Diced	1.00	25	0g	0mg	350mg	4g	3g	1g	2g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g
Publix Orange Roughy	1.00	80	1g	20mg	70mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Green Giant Asparagus Spears, Canned	1.00	20	0g	0mg	430mg	3g	1g	1g	2g
Strawberries	1.00	77	0g	0mg	4mg	20g	10g	5g	1g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		399	7g	97mg	931mg	39g	16g	7g	49g

*Updated weight gain above to reflect true weight increase (I was off one pound). Actually gained 1.2 rather than .2lbs. Lots of salt!*

R5, P2, VLCD 6 - Winter Appears (188.8) = -.8lbs

2012-01-21T21:30:00.003-07:00

It rained all morning, then this afternoon, everything turned to snow. When I took my daughter out to do her run through for dance, the roads were slushy and slick. Not sure I'll make it to church tomorrow (and I refuse to risk my life doing so). I tried that once and ended up slamming into a guard wall on the interstate. Not fun.

I had lovely Mongolian BBQ today with my estimated 100 ounces of beef and loads of veggies. I made sure to request no oil and I gave my rice and spring roll to my kids. I went over in my calories a tiny bit with a bit of a salt binge again, but tried to drink lots of fluids today to compensate. We'll see how things work out tomorrow.

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Beef Stir Fry Meat	1.00	202	9g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	28g
Dole Shredded Lettuce	1.00	15	0g	0mg	10mg	3g	2g	1g	1g
Walden Farms Calorie Free Bacon Ranch Dressing	1.00	0	0g	0mg	275mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Publix Orange Roughy	1.00	80	1g	20mg	70mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Hot And Sour Soup	1.00	228	9g	112mg	0mg	10g	0g	1g	27g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		525	19g	132mg	355mg	13g	2g	2g	72g

I tried the walden dressing today, recommended by some on the boards. It was okay and will definitely suffice for P2. I look forward to using the real stuff for P3.

R5, P2, VLCD 5 - Miso Salto (189.6) = -.4lbs

2012-01-20T21:06:00.003-07:00

The release, I'm sure, would have been greater save my salt splurge yesterday with the Miso. You'll note yesterday's calories were lower than they've been, but my salt was off the chart. TOM is definitely making an arrival soon (the painful "would be pimple" that I always get right before it comes, is sitting snugly on my nose). The other alarm? My need for more salt and sugar. This is the toughest time to be on the protocol, for me.

I was out a lot with the family today so, consequently, I had to eat out. When I've gone through the protocol in the past, I've been very good about choices, wiping off excess oil and eating slowly. The only boo boo I really made today was having the salads at both lunch and dinner. Veggie options are limited when you're eating at fast food restaurants. Tomorrow, hubby wants to take me to Mongolian BBQ. I have to remember to tell them, "No oil!" and watch the veggies I choose.

Even with my minimal release and knowing what the Miso did to contribute to it, I'd still love some more. I suppose I'd have to make sure and OD on water, the next time I have it. Over 800 mg of sodium per serving is truly outrageous!

Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Wendy's Salads - Side Salad (without dressing)	2.00	70	0g	0mg	40mg	14g	8g	6g	4g
Wendy's Salads - Side Salad (without dressing)	2.00	70	0g	0mg	40mg	14g	8g	6g	4g
Wendy's Jr. Hamburger Patty	1.00	90	6g	30mg	110mg	1g	0g	0g	8g
Wendy's Grilled Chicken Go Wrap (no Tort/no Hm)	2.00	170	8g	0mg	710mg	0g	0g	0g	24g
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g
Celestial Seasonings Zingers To Go - Peach Delight Green Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Celestial Seasonings Zingers To Go - Peach Delight Green Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Svedka Vodka	0.50	35	0g	0mg	0mg	6g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		447	14g	31mg	921mg	37g	18g	12g	41g

R5, P2, VLCD 5 - Feeling Appreciated (190) = -1.6lbs

2012-01-19T22:00:00.004-07:00

I was so nervous about my mid-year evaluation. My manager was gracious, kind and encouraging. There are things I need to fix and I'm aware of them, but he didn't beat me down about them. I am very thankful that, even though it wasn't my best review, it did go well. (Thank you God for being there.)

My day actually went pretty well and ended at a decent time. Then, I did what I do to distract me from snacking and food; I played games. The T.V. is finally up on the wall in our bedroom and the video consoles are hooked up. I played a rousing game of Gauntlet: Seven Sorrows. Yeah, I know it's old, but I'm a fan of that particular hack-and-slash. I'll have to see if anything new from that series has emerged. I also played a little Kingdom Hearts over the weekend. This is what works for me, but I'm sure there are other things I could do. Once the weather warms up, I'll probably make my way to the trails for dog walks. That sounds fun.

My eating today was pretty good but heavy on the salt (I know TOM is making it's way). Here's what I had today:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Cabbage, Steamed	1.00	22	0g	0mg	16mg	5g	0g	0g	1g
Target Beef Stew Meat	0.75	150	9g	45mg	248mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
miso soup	1.00	70	2g	0mg	721mg	9g	0g	3g	5g
Apple (medium)	1.00	80	0g	0mg	0mg	22g	16g	5g	0g
Wegmans Cod	0.35	31	0g	16mg	23mg	0g	0g	0g	7g
Svedka Vodka	1.00	69	0g	0mg	0mg	11g	0g	0g	0g
Strawberries	1.00	77	0g	0mg	4mg	20g	10g	5g	1g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		500	12g	61mg	1,011mg	67g	26g	13g	30g

R5, P2, VLCD 4- Wishing I Were an Heiress (191.6) = -1.4lbs

2012-01-18T21:31:00.004-07:00

Work, although a bit lighter than normal this morning, is really starting to get to me. We are so numbers driven. Why can't I be judged on how my students feel about me, rather than how many I'm keeping or how many are having issues. They're adults, for crying out loud. Adults have issues, drama and weirdness come up in their lives everyday. I have nothing to do with the loved one dying, or the impending divorce, or the lost job. My role is to motivate them through their studies and I feel a do a pretty good job at that.

I have my mid-year evaluation tomorrow and I am terrified. Never in my life have I had a"bad" review. I'm just waiting for the ball to drop and someone to call me from on high and say, "We really like you, but not your numbers." These are the times I wish I would come into some bizarre inheritance and just say, "Bye bye, job. Any work I do now will be because I want to and something I won't constantly be scrutinized for." I'm trying to let go and let God, but it's really tough.

Today, I ate out twice but maintained the protocol. It's amazing how you fall back into routines. I ordered a Jr. Whopper, no ketchup and mayo and removed the bun. I had two side salads with some Walden dressing (I forgot I even had it. Good stuff!). For dinner, I picked up chicken from a local eatery here that's pretty popular. I removed the skin from a small chicken breast, then opened up a can of my tomatoes. After wards, a nice grapefruit half. P3 is so far off, but I know I'll be whipping up my regular protein recipes as well as my famous guacamole every two or three days, once it's here. Guacamole goes with everything!

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Burger King Side Salad	2.00	40	0g	10mg	0mg	8g	1g	3g	1g
Maple Grove Farms Fat Free Balsamic Vinaigrette	2.00	30	0g	0mg	190mg	6g	4g	0g	0g
Burger King Whopper Jr. (no Bun, Ketchup Or Mayo)	1.00	130	9g	35mg	140mg	1g	0g	0g	11g
Twinings English Breakfast Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Stevia Powder	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	3g	0g	0g	0g
Milk, Ff Lactose Free	0.16	13	0g	1mg	21mg	2g	2g	0g	1g
Apple (medium)	1.00	80	0g	0mg	0mg	22g	16g	5g	0g
Chicken Breast	1.00	130	1g	68mg	77mg	0g	0g	0g	27g
Canned Tomatoes, Diced	1.00	25	0g	0mg	350mg	4g	3g	1g	2g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		474	10g	114mg	778mg	53g	26g	9g	43g

R5, P2, VLCD 3 - Over the Hump (193) = -2.8lbs

2012-01-17T20:47:00.002-07:00

The third day. I made it! It was definitely easier going today. Work was crazy and I nearly missed having my lunch when I was supposed to. The emptiness isn't so bad anymore. Now, it's just learning how to deal with the smells again.

I bought fried chicken for the girls and hubby tonight, while hubby was home making the side items. The smell on the way home was intoxicating, but I held true despite wanting to just have a taste.

Tonight, I'm doing a bit of beauty regime. I'm currently sitting with a very, shiny cucumber mask on my face. Since I can't have my normal pedicure right now (they put lotion on the legs, which I totally didn't think about), I'm going to take off the old polish and do my own this weekend. When I reach my goal, I'll have to try and communicate to the lady who typically takes care of me that I can't have the lotion. Wonder if she'll rub me down in my mineral oil if I ask her. Hmm...

Here's what I had today (the table decided to work):

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Keurig K-Cup Kona Coffee	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Kroger Lactose Free, Fat Free Milk	1.00	80	0g	5mg	130mg	12g	11g	0g	8g
Target Beef Stew Meat	0.75	150	9g	45mg	248mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Cabbage, Steamed	1.00	22	0g	0mg	16mg	5g	0g	0g	1g
Wegmans Cod	1.00	90	1g	45mg	65mg	0g	0g	0g	20g
Canned Tomatoes, Diced	1.00	25	0g	0mg	350mg	4g	3g	1g	2g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g
Apple (medium)	1.00	80	0g	0mg	0mg	22g	16g	5g	0g
Stolichnaya Vodka	0.50	35	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		508	10g	95mg	808mg	50g	30g	6g	48g

R5, P2, VLCD 2 - Moving Past Temptations (195.8) = -2.8

2012-01-16T21:30:00.003-07:00

A holiday and a snowy day off. Things started off well with sleeping in until after 7:00am (pretty late for me). We hung around the house doing a lot of nothing (also nice), then went shopping later in the day. I had lunch out with the family; a beef patty and two side salads with lemon. Being around my girls, munching on cheddar, ranch and fries was incredibly tempting but, I held fast. I nice release this morning of almost three pounds was well worth it and a driving motivation to keep going.

Hubby and I talked about this round, the length of time it should take and when I'll be able to work out and eat all the fun goodies again (in moderation of course). This round, I'll be indulging in Yoga, stretching and fun-time on the Wii. I can't remain sendentary during this round. Since I'm not doing the normal walk around the office, jaunt around town tasks that most people do, I have to get in some kind of moderate activity somewhere.

Tomorrow is the first day of VLCDs with a regular work schedule. The nice thing is that I don't have the pressure of explaining why my meals are so limited. Since I work from home, no one is peering over my shoulder to see what I'm lacking. I have a social life again (which is terrific). This is where the issues may arise. I'll have to turn down the wine and forgo the snacks. It's only a couple of months and I'm sure if I explain it that way my host/hostess should be forgiving. Here are my totals (the chart isn't copying correctly again today):

Cals Fat Cholest Sodium Carbs Sugars Fiber Protein

461 7g 80mg 695mg 66g 38g 12g 43g

As an aside, I purchased Powdered Stevia Extract today. Wow! So much better than the stuff you buy at the store (namely Sweet Leaf and Stevia in the Raw). No bitter aftertaste and it taste nearly as good as Splenda. It was pretty pricey, but I could see myself using this all the time. I also bought some Xylitol for P4 cooking. Thankfully, it doesn't have the same effects on me that it has on some people. It was also cheaper than the Stevia. I'm eager to see how it bakes up in my cakes. Yum!

R5, P2, VLCD 1 - Readjusting (198.6) = +2.4lbs

2012-01-15T22:38:00.004-07:00

I knew it would be challenging, but I'd forgotten just how challenging. Two more days of fighting the urges (more so than the hunger), and I should be alright. I'm an addict coming off the hooch. Carb binging for the past few months has my body all crazy. I feel empty and I sometimes confuse that with hunger. I was also pretty cranky and had to remind my eldest that my body was looking for all the things it had during the holidays. She tried to be understanding. As soon as I had my dinner, I was better.

Looks like the eating I did yesterday made a difference. I would have guessed a bigger gain this load, but I'll take it. Going to bed on time is going to help too, but that's hard when hubby works 12 hour days and I only see him later in the evening. I'll figure it out.

I drank a lot of tea and coffee today. I suppose I'd better get used to having the mad, passionate love affair with the potty again. That should subside after a few days as well. Here's what I had today (hoping it makes for a big loss tomorrow):

Calorie Goal:  1,254 Calories Consumed: 437  Calories Burned: 0 Net  Calories: 437 

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Target Beef Stew Meat	0.75	150	9g	45mg	248mg	0g	0g	0g	16g
Cabbage, Steamed	1.00	22	0g	0mg	16mg	5g	0g	0g	1g
Grapefruit, Half	1.00	26	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g	0g	1g
Wegmans Cod	1.00	90	1g	45mg	65mg	0g	0g	0g	20g
Canned Tomatoes, Diced	1.00	25	0g	0mg	350mg	4g	3g	1g	2g
Apple (medium)	1.00	80	0g	0mg	0mg	22g	16g	5g	0g
Good Earth Sweet And Spicy Herbal Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Celestial Seasonings Zingers To Go - Peach Delight Green Tea	1.00	0	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Coffee	2.00	4	0g	0mg	10mg	0g	0g	0g	1g
Borden Half And Half	1.00	40	4g	0mg	12mg	2g	0g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		437	14g	90mg	700mg	40g	19g	6g	40g

R5 - Loading Day 2 (196.2) = -1.2lbs

2012-01-14T22:48:00.003-07:00

I guess the Wii really set me up. Strangely, I was a bit weirded out by the loss. I'm supposed to be gaining weight right now, not losing it. The number this morning told me that the eating needed to be bolstered a bit. I did much better today with loading, so much so that I feel a bit ill. Ugh! Too much food. From the Denny's grand slam to the rich, Chinese dishes I had for dinner. I caped everything off with my last tequila sunrise for a while.

The daily plate is not allowing me to copy and paste, as it once did using Mozilla. Below is what I was able to lift using IE instead. Not as neat, but at least it's history of what I did:

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Denny's Whole Wheat Pancakes	1.00	388	2g	19mg	1,188mg	80g	3g	10g	0g
Denny's Scrambled Eggs	1.00	250	21g	455mg	380mg	1g	0g	0g	13g
Denny's Sausage, 4 links	0.50	177	16g	15mg	472mg	0g	0g	0g	8g
Whipped Butter	1.00	70	7g	20mg	55mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Vermont Maid Maple Syrup	1.00	210	0g	0mg	25mg	53g	41g	41g	0g
Wendy's Crispy Chicken Sandwhich	1.00	340	14g	40mg	810mg	36g	4g	1g	18g
Tater Tots	1.00	170	8g	0mg	420mg	20g	0g	2g	2g
Sonic Small Strawberry Slush	1.00	227	0g	0mg	5mg	59g	58g	0g	0g
Chinese Sweet & Sour Chicken	1.00	346	18g	61mg	677mg	29g	0g	0g	17g
Almond Boneless Chicken, Chinese Food	1.00	200	5g	10mg	300mg	56g	0g	0g	0g
Egg Roll	1.00	372	17g	29mg	0mg	43g	0g	2g	13g
Krispy Kreme Apple Fritter	1.00	380	21g	5mg	290mg	46g	23g	2g	4g
Bar - Generic Tequila Sunrise	1.00	200	0g	0mg	7mg	26g	18g	0g	0g
Tropicana Tropical Punch	1.00	120	0g	0mg	5mg	31g	30g	0g	0g
Tropicana Tropical Punch	1.00	120	0g	0mg	5mg	31g	30g	0g	0g

Totals		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
		3,570	129g	654mg	4,639mg	510g	207g	58g	75g

Tomorrow begins my VLCD one and I've prepared all my meals for the week. They consist of browned stew beef and cabbage or cod and canned tomatoes. I also purchased apples and grapefruit. Although it's not a very thrilling list of foods, you really don't have to put a lot of effort into what you're going to have. I'll be cooking the other main food groups for the kids and will again learn to live vicariously from the smells. Let the fun begin!

R5 - Loading Day 1 (Starting 197.4 pounds. Oy!)

2012-01-13T11:47:00.005-07:00

My package arrived on January 11th, but I wasn't here to receive it by hand from the postman. So, the little slip they left asked me to pick up after 9:00am on January 12th (which I did). I haven't been very good at preparing this time around (physically and somewhat mentally). So much going on with Indy's birthday party and the kids being out of school for the long weekend (one day earlier than most, thank you very much Davis School District) and trying to figure out how to mix and not screw it up for the sublingual route I've chosen to take this time.

Last night, I gathered all my stuff along with my computer and viewed how to mix for sublingual with 100proof Vodka. All went well and I started to feel the excitement of starting this journey again. So much of this process and making it work is a mental drive. Thankfully, I didn't need much for that to kick in. Unfortunately, when I stepped on the scale this morning, I thought I would pass out: 197.4 pounds. Are you freaking kidding me?! I knew it was bad, but not that bad. To even type the number here is sobering. I am certainly glad I have the protocol as an option, otherwise I might melt into a puddle on the floor. I am really, truly praying for guidance and the ability to sustain and maintain my normal weight, once this is all over. That is what seems to be the hardest (and can be for any type of diet or eating plan). The yoyo-ing and cycles must end and it's definitely up to me.

I had my first dose this morning and my second dose 12 hours later. It was so weird for me to wrap my head around holding something in my mouth, rather than injecting. I was also very skeptical, despite all the success so many have had with this format. By the time I was working, I knew it had worked! I wasn't the least bit hungry. In fact, as I prepared breakfast for me and my girls, I wondered if I could even get through the meal. I forced myself as I don't want the drama that comes with poor loading. I need this to work correctly (especially after today's weigh-in). Okay, enough about that number already. I'm taking steps to make it go away.

Indy had her birthday and it was as much fun for me as it was for the parents. We had a blast playing just dance and drinking wine. Oh, the wine. Is there a low sugar wine that I can get away with on protocol? I gotta find one! Here's what I managed to force down today:

Cals: 3089
Fat: 117 g
Cholesterol: 240 mg
Sodium: 3212 mg
Carbs: 390 g
Fiber: 9 g
Protein: 89 g
Sugars: 198 g

We were dancing around like crazy tonight. I'm supposed to gain, but I won't be surprised if I lose.

On Your Mark...

2012-01-09T22:04:00.004-07:00

I started eating a mostly protein diet again today. Hubby and I are trying to "cleanse" a bit before we really hit things hard (he with his training and I with my diet). My goodies should be here early next week. How about that for timing. I'll be starting my diet around the time of my birthday. Oh, well. I've already told my mother not to get me anything food related. I also said, "I'm not opposed to gift cards." Actually, I'm not opposed to just getting a greeting card. How about one of those that plays music, mom? I'd be happy with just that.

There's motivation coming from all directions. I saw the best bikini ever at Spencer's gifts; wonder woman in all her glory. It would take a lot of work to get into it but, holy cow! Super hot in all ways. I told hubby, since it's unlikely that my tummy will be completely flat, I could wear the top with red shorts. I could still rock it. Just hope I can find one when the time comes.

The other goal items are still very appealing (and much more realistic). It's going to be a hard road but oh, so worth it. Haven't reread the protocol yet (I've actually been pleasure reading a novel my best friend gave me for Christmas). My goal is to try and find the audio version I spotted once and listen to it during my non-call times.

Happy 2012 - Peace and Happiness to You!

2012-01-03T21:09:00.003-07:00

I'm very optmistic about the new year. Last year was very trying for me and it really sent me to the brink. Twenty-twelve is going to be full of love, health, travel, prosperity and happiness. My preparation has begun for my new round and I found a farm supply store to purchase a couple of my mixing syringes (less than $1 each, thank you very much). So many sites offer mixing kits for way too much money. I don't think I'll ever be in a position to put these kits together myself, but there's got to be a more cost effective way to do it. If anyone has any feedback....

I jumped the gun and bought two, new hair units today. The unit I'm wearing is getting rather dingy and I'm not quite ready to go to my braids yet. The cost of a unit is about the cost of what I'd pay to have my hair done in a two week period. I'm still saving money in the long wrong. The units are very different. One is a razor cut mid-back length. The second is a bob that will look very nice, once the spring arrives (assuming that each unit will last me one month each).

Finally, I bit the bullet (as I said in my last post) and bought my big girl jeans; size 14 was hard to swallow. I've been a fourteen before but I never thought I'd be one again. Hubby said, "I know you'll feel better when you're out of the double-digits." Too true!

The remainder of the week will be spent re-reading the protocol, going over my mixing instructions and documenting them on paper. Shopping for the items I will be eating for the next two to three weeks. The round I'm doing may last two months or more, since I'm going the sublingual route. I'm anxious to compare how this goes versus the injections I have done in the past. I'll be sure to document.

To any lurkers still around, I hope you have a bountiful, prosperous year. May you reach all of your goals and find strength you never knew you had. Peace and love!

No More Making Mrs. Claus My Role Model

2011-12-28T06:05:00.003-07:00

Christmas is over and the new year approacheth. Of course, I made myself far too merry and indulged myself with lots of happiness and too much food. The happiness is always good, but the food always seems to go with it. Interestingly, 2011 wasn't the greatest year and I should be super lean because of it (I trend towards eating less when I'm depressed). The end of the year has brought big changes and the result? My expanded (expanding) waistline.

I haven't stepped on the scale in a couple of weeks, but I know things are not good. I knew I would be back on the wagon after the holidays and my goal is, as always, to try and make permanent changes that result in good maintenance. I will be on that road soon.

Interestingly, hubby asked, "Are you going to do another round?" I thought this interesting, since he gets very frustrated when I am on the protocol. He's very supportive, but always feels I eat so little. I have to remind him, "That it's part of the initial process and you know it doesn't last forever." I do well with the first two phases and even begin maintaining well (initially), but something seems to creep in and set me back. It's time to do a little "me" investigating again and hopefully squash whatever it is that creeps in. It's detrimental to all my progress.

I've been reading around again to all my saved blogs, vlogs and motivational sites. I also plan to re-read Pounds and Inches very soon (always do so before a round). I've still a few things to research since I've decided to try sub-lingual this time over injections. Although I have no problem with injections and have been successful with that route, I would rather keep going and not worry about skip days and immunity. The skip days always throw a wrench in planning. Let's just do it and get it over with, right?

Once my product arrives and the timing is in place (TOM is here right now so, I'm guessing shortly after my daughter's birthday and right before mine), I will begin Round Five. Two and Five are my lucky numbers. Gosh, I hope that proves true with my weight reduction. (Incidentally, I was in the 140s at the end of round two so, as always, I remain hopeful).

Goals are important and there's no time like the present to set up some wish list items (and as far as time, it happens to be about 6-ish in the morning on an off day...why am I up?):

-15lbs = a new game (time management games are my favorite and keep me from nibbling)

-25lbs = mani/pedi combo (a true treat! I get pedis regularly but full beauty would be nice)

-35lbs = new hair (I'm eying a really lovely unit that's pretty pricey)

-40lbs or more = a new designer cocktail dress for my work mixer this summer (perhaps not this one, but something just as sassy)

I'm gearing up and feeling pretty good about things to come.

What will be difficult is buying a pair of big girl jeans today. Hubby and I are going on our couples excursion and sweats are not an option. I've got a dress or two, but that's not practical in 20 degree weather. So, I'll breakdown and buy an inexpensive pair of size (heaven help me!) fourteen jeans today. What's really frightening is that I'm not sure those will be big enough. Ugh! If that's true, this will be the largest I've ever been while not pregnant.

It's not an easy process (it never is), but I'm up to the challenge and ready to dedicate myself full force. I know I will feel better, live better and look better with less weight. I will be more inclined to activity (right now, it's just very difficult). I'm also anxious to get back into my cute, little clothes from last year. I've held off from buying too many "big girl" clothes (aside from sweats) because I know I'll get back down. I am determined to be healthy again. So shall it be. Amen!

Working out with Hubby

2011-12-15T09:38:00.002-07:00

Hubby came home last night to work out with me. He's incredibly intense about the process. Of course, he would be. A bodybuilder's thoughts revolve around which muscles to work. He had me doing a lot of really good movements, slow and steady (thankfully). I've not gotten a handle on my eating the way I'd like to, but it's really a process. The holidays are always a challenge for me. I'll keep working on it.

Off the Wagon, but Haven't Given Up!

2011-12-11T06:59:00.002-07:00

So, I suspected I would fall off the wagon. I did really well the past couple of weeks (losing about five pounds total). Then, we started eating out on the weekends and I totally sabotaged myself. Ridiculous! I gained it all back. So, it's back to the low-carb eating (at least until the end of the month). My addictions to carbs and sugars are going to be the downfall, if I don't practice some self-control.

Right now, I'm avoiding appetite suppressants but it may be something I look into shortly, if I need the initial help. I typically use them at first, then ween off because I don't like taking medication. The problem with the appetite suppressants I use, however, is the caffeine that so many of them have. These seem to be the ones that work but I'm incredibly sensitive to the stuff.

The workouts were pretty decent last week, due to my lighter schedule. I have to find a way to work them in on my heavy weeks. Perhaps I have no choice but to use part of my lunch or just work it into the evenings (I prefer morning workouts). Journaling and holding myself accountable has to pick back up. I will. I must.

Making Good Progress

2011-11-29T21:39:00.003-07:00

I've lost a few "L.B.s", as the gossip shows put it. It's a slow, steady journey. I'm mostly low carb so, the fat content is a bit higher than what I've done in the past, but I'm sated and feeling like I'm getting good nutrition. Hubby and I started our Detox this week. I can't tell if it's doing anything yet, but I'll keep up the regime for the entire 7 days as directed. It can only make things better, right?

Last night, I made a cheesy, green bean chicken casserole. The main ingredients were cheese, chicken and green beans but the other tidbits are what made it extra special. I hit three of the main food groups with just one dish! The girls? In heaven! Both asked for seconds and my oldest asked for thirds. We finished it up tonight. That recipe is definitely making its way into my regular rotation.

I need to get in more activity, but it's hard with my insane work schedule. I actually didn't get done until 7:45 this evening. Ugh! Thankfully, not a regular occurrence for me but, yeesh! I hope I don't see many more long evenings like it again. The workouts, however sparse, have been effective and make me feel good. I'm not doing anything too strenous yet. A bit of treadmill walking and some Wii action gets my heart rate pumping. I look forward to doing my Firm discs again. That's when I'll incorporate weight training and that's always good.

"Hello, TOM. What's with you being a day late? You better not pull a fast one and show up during my romantic New Year's with my hubby. I will be very put out."

Ew! Food Poisioning!

2011-11-23T08:56:00.002-07:00

My weight loss has had an interesting start. On Monday, I stopped at the grocery store and picked up chicken and broccoli salad. They were the only items that I ate that I didn't prepare myself. The salad was the culprit I'm sure. It had my stomach in a tailspin! I'm finally feeling better and am now able to eat.

I think I'll be able to work out tomorrow. My stomach is still a bit topsy turvy, so I'll keep sipping on my tea and ginger ale. It's been a mostly protein existence and I've lost a bit of weight already.

Moving and Weight Gain

2011-11-21T11:00:00.002-07:00

It's been a tumultuous summer and fall for me (actually, the entire year has been rough, if you want to know the truth). We've all but sold our house and moved into a townhome. During the moving experience, I had struggles with the realtor, my work, the kids, my marriage. I wish things had gone more smoothly, but I'm happy to say the end is in sight. Through the process, I picked up quite a bit of weight (as I discovered through my HCG experiences, I am an emotional eater and a carb addict). Moving is in the top five of life changing experiences. The moving carries a large part of the blame with my lapse, but not entirely. What's crazy is I had gotten to a good weight where I was happy and maintaining for quite a while. I took my biyearly trip to Nashville and everything just went hay wire.

So, here I am again to track and get things back in order. I'm forgoing another round to just low-carb eating and good exercise. That was how I maintained before and didn't have to starve myself to do it. Hubby is helping as are the kids. We're adopting our healthy lifestyles before the traditional resolutions begin (I don't believe in them anyway).

Today, I started with a "Michael Jackson Experience" warm up and then 20 minutes on the treadmill. Not bad. Unfortunately, my day went all nutty this morning and I didn't get to make my breakfast (I told hubby I should make the quiche the night before, but we were bonding so, I made the sacrifice). I will get it put together today. Since we're all eating the same, I have to make a lot of what I normally make for myself. My kids eating what I'm eating should make for easier shopping. Of course, they'll get to splurge more than me.

The holidays will be enjoyed. I'll carb, then get back to business. I'm not denying my favorites or making myself miserable to be smaller. I can do this the right way and enjoy what I like occasionally. That is the goal.

So, I'm back. Daily tracking and blogging. It's hard to get back into the habit, but I will. I have to. My health depends on it. Onward and upward!

R4, P2 VLCD 26 - Jonesing for Phase 3 (-2.lb Release)

2011-05-28T21:16:00.003-06:00

A new change to this round; I continued to lose after the injections stopped. No complaints here. I look forward to tomorrow and all the barbecue and cheese. I'll have to take it easy, so as not to frighten my poor stomach and have it running (literally) from all the new foods. I will be good. I will be good. I will be good.

Today wasn't a good eating day. I just wasn't that hungry this afternoon, and threw out most of my steak. I ate well for dinner, than had a few sugar-free treats (getting started a little early, I know). The Russell Stover brand is great in a pinch, but I prefer my Mrs. Cavanaugh's. Thankfully, I don't see a lot of issues with this candy during normal P3 and P4 eating. I have decided they will be my life-long candy. I actually prefer them over the real thing, now.

So, I'm not sure how consistent I'll be about documenting on here through P3, but I'm certainly going to try. Here's what I had today (including my yummy treats):

May 28th, 2011

Net calories: 494

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Flat Iron Steak	0.25	50	3g	19mg	21mg	0g	0g	0g	6g
Claussen Kosher Dill Sandwich Slices Pickles	1.00	5	0g	0mg	420mg	1g	0g	0g	0g
Burger King WHOPPER - Low Carb	1.00	280	20g	75mg	290mg	3g	2g	2g	22g
Burger King Side Garden Salad	1.00	15	0g	0mg	0mg	3g	1g	1g	1g
Russell Stover Sugar Free Peanut Butter Cups	0.50	80	6g	3mg	53mg	9g	0g	1g	2g
Russell Stover Pecan Delight Sugar Free	1.00	64	5g	5mg	35mg	23g	0g	4g	0g
Totals:		494	34g	101mg	819mg	39g	3g	8g	30g

So, I ended up at 162.4 at the end of this round (a total of 15.8lbs released this round). Hubby says that, after he gets me on my plan (after phase 3 and our vacation, part of phase 4), I may lose more. I feel good and am happy here, but wouldn't be upset at a little more loss).